I am still awake, and I have a headache again. Yay. My body and mind do not seem to realize that I need to be up at a certain time tomorrow morning, and I need all of the rest I can get! We all know that I catch a pretty hefty case of “the crazies” when I do not get enough rest. I guess it will be one of those days.
So as I sit here and write this, I cannot help but think, “What am I doing!?” Because honestly, I have no idea. I do not know what I want to do in the future. Heck, I’m still confuse about what I want to do with my life right now! I guess when I have one of those days where I feel absolutely sure of myself, I should just go for it. I should just get what I want, and keep it. And in regards to my life at this moment; it’s not too late to change, right? I am definitely not the type of person who likes to change my routine up, even though I do tend to adapt to new situations fairly easily.
All I can do is keep my head up.
I literally felt lost all day, because I had so many things I wanted to do but I didn’t know where to start! I didn’t even get to move my bedroom furniture around. But I did catch One Direction’s gig live on the iTunes Festival stream. That was the most exciting part of my day. Well, hearing their new single was also pretty exciting.
As you can tell, I don’t have much of a life!
Anyway, tomorrow is the start of a new hockey season for the Vancouver Giants! I’m super excited.
I finally have a break, and it feels really weird. I’m not used to doing nothing anymore. All day I’ve just been catching up on TV shows, listening to music, and now I’m actually cooking myself dinner. This is so refreshing not having to grab something on the go while on my break at work.
I’m actually really excited that I also have tomorrow off. I’m finally going to rearrange the furniture in my room.
ALSO THIS MONTH I MIGHT BE GETTING A NEW DSLR. FINALLY. THIS IS EXCITING NEWS AND DESERVES TO BE TYPED OUT IN ALL CAPITALS.
I really wish that I could do high school over again. I wish I didn’t slack off as much as I did. I know I could have done so much better.
I really just wish that I had taken school so much more seriously.
I either get way too much sleep, or not enough at all. Sometimes I can even go four days and nights without sleep and be fine, but other times I can’t make it through the day and will be exhausted after just a few hours of being awake.
Most of the time when I’m awake in the middle of the night I don’t do anything productive. I don’t know if it’s because my brain isn’t functioning properly or if I just like to procrastinate. I do usually THINK of things to do though.
I guess I should start making better use of my time.
I have no clue what I’m doing, or where to go from here. I’m upset most of the time and I feel that I have absolutely no one to turn to. Everyone else is happy and so alive. All I can do is sit back and watch. I don’t know how to be happy or lively. The summertime is usually when I’m most UNhappy. I don’t have a hobby or anything to look forward to until the fall.
With my school situation, I still don’t have that solved. I’m so sick of it. I don’t know what to do. No one will help me either. I’ve tried to resolve all of it, but no one cares to officiate. No one ever has cared. If they did, it would have been solved two years ago when it started.
All I want is a friend; someone I can turn to.
School is almost over. But things haven’t been going too well. I’ve basically abandoned my school work, and it’s tough to get back into it. Even though I’m trying to stay focused, I just can’t do it.
When I get really stressed out about something, I don’t sleep well. This week has been an example of that. Did you know the sun comes up around 4:30 AM nowadays?!