I am an idiot. I have put myself in the worst possible situation. I’m trying so hard to dig myself out of this really deep hole, but nothing I’ve done has made it better. As time ticks on, I feel as if my days are numbered. I can’t handle this level of stress. It’s entirely my fault.
I’m not sure if I’m being punished for being such a shitty person, but it does feel like it. I really should have tried harder to off myself. I can’t believe I failed twice. Third time’s a charm, right?